Onarada

I claw at my skin, Trying to gauge out the problems that have inflicted this upon me, Ripping out all the pain that causes my descent into the unknown. Thoughts swim round my head and pain swims through my veins, I try to break away from what I'm feeling; I keep it down, bottled up inside. The phlegm in my throat chokes my every breath, I suffocate, My lungs give in and my heart bleeds; it's torn. Every thought of you drowns my brain and I break down. The raindrops on the window pane remind me of the river of tears streaming down my cheeks. A mist covers my eyes, the haze that covers my mind clouds over once more. But, I've still

Every day I sit and think. Think about you... About me. I try to help you through All your pain While hiding mine. Every day a battle. But then, Suddenly, Another problem added, But for once It's not you pining for her And me consoling. It's you giving in, You destroying my trust In you. All the faith I had In your sensibility Is no more. You did it for the wrong reasons, You were just stupid. I ask myself why? Why did you do it? Why put me through your shit? Why didn't you even consider how I would fucking feel? Disappointment doesn't cover it, Loss of respect isn't even close... We haven't lost what we had But it

How do you see me? What am I to you? What we had, what we knew, Is no longer true. We lost what we had, We can't go back anymore. It's like a knife twisting in my chest And I can't breathe. I can't go on If you don't care for me My heart it tears inside. I can't go on With what you said to me You're not worth the tears I've cried. I'm lost in a world where Pain is rife There is no comfort I can see It's never-ending strife We lost what we had, We can't go back anymore. It's like a knife twisting in my chest And I can't breathe. I can't go on If you don't care for me My heart it tears inside. I can't go on With what y

O right then. Hmm so I spend The majority of my time Helping you with your problems. 'What's on your mind? I'll help, You can tell me… It's ok.' Friendship is so important to me. I've been through a lot with it. So, finally I found someone I can trust, All that I put in I'll get back. Or so I thought. Our conversation starts as normal, But a change to your tone makes me wonder 'What's on your mind? I'll help, You can tell me… It's ok.' Well, I can't help apparently. You know full well you're not just a friend to me, Though I try to conceal it With every power I have. Every fibre of my being. I hate to see you in pain

The days drag on, The longer I'm alive the more I hate life, Everyone says how great life is meant to be, But look at what goes on, How can that be great? What is great in this life? Pick one thing I am meant to rejoice in, All I see is atrocity, Everywhere I go depression, sadness, crying, death, When will it end? The raindrop on the window pane is the tear on my cheek, Slowly falling till it drops and I choke, splutter, Wishing I could do something, If I had my way you'd have been gone long ago. What right have you to play God? But what could I do? The answer…nothing, What's my life worth? Nothing, Terrorists rule, govern

Why do you have this effect on me? I honestly don't know why I care. You obviously couldn't give a shit about me, Whether I live or die, I can't seem to see what other people see, It just makes me cry. Everyone likes you, you seem such a good friend, So why do you drive me round the bend? No-one cares as much as I do, It infuriates me so much, But I won't let myself fall in love with you, No matter how much I crave your touch. Your support and friendship have helped me through, Why can't I see what the others see too? They can't see any feelings that I reveal, They're so blind they can't see, Is it your feelings that you conce

The past, It seems, Is more present than I thought. An explanation Of which there are many I can give only one. Before, when I thought of you Butterflies swan in my stomach, My heart leapt when you spoke, And a warm feeling swept over me. But, you belonged to another. No matter how hard I tried I couldn't let go. I tried. O I tried! Not talking to you, Being with you as much as possible, But in the end The only thing that could cure my heart-ache was time. I never told you how I felt, But you probably knew deep down. We remained friends As I tried to move on. Almost seven months later, I felt free, The most free I

As if a fox chased by the hunt, I'm running for my life. As if a piece of trash, I'm tossed aside. I won't let this build up inside me. It's cut my life into pieces, But somehow Everything that is more important Doesn't cause me as much pain As you do. I've cried so many times. I feel as if I could've made An ocean of tears. They flow, Bitter tasting, into my life, Staining my heart. Keep consoling me, Keep asking what's wrong. But I'm not going to tell you that You caused this pain. You don't know what I'm feeling, So stop acting like you do. It wouldn't matter How hard I tried to stay, Because she has pulled you aw

I'm running away from this pain, The suffering of this endless game. But I can never be free from your hold, To just break away would be so bold. I'm out on the edge; so far away, The affliction won't end today. So lose the interior that you're faking, Can't you see it's my heart you're breaking?

Lying here in my bed, Thinking of what I should have said, But now it's too late, I was wrong to hesitate. I can't put you behind me, You are all that I can see, But time is moving on, And I miss you now you're gone. All I remember are those times you looked at me, How were you to know my vulnerability? I'm running away from this pain, The suffering of this endless game. But I can never be free from your hold, To just break away would be so bold. I'm out on the edge; so far away, The affliction won't end today. So lose the interior that you're faking, Can't you see it's my heart you're breaking? I put you on a pedestal, But

My So-Called Beautiful i've made a house out of paper and ashes of a ruined picnic today. the wallpaper plastered with polaroids of sinking ships, making something truthful out to be so deceitful. i am in a debt to the melody of your silent sleep. to account for my many comforts. you'll see, all i need is your pulse on my lips. even though i'd go so far to build the wells just to poison them. you'll see all i need is your bright eyes as a sunrise. make it a pattern i said...left a boy at home on his own. the walls are now going to be covered in red crayon picturing us when you come back. carrying you over the threshold, but you're n

Seems like love left me Romance just became a silent movie. Summer's gone winter arrives I can feel myself slipping on ice This room is dark, curtains closed But filled with music from worn out head phones Every song describing the same situation A love-less soul forced into deprivation. Put me to sleep and let me dream It's so much better than life could seem No one can see that she loves so very much Meaning less than she feels anothers' depths she'll never touch Standing infront of an audience Politely awaiting the preliminary performance Complimentary claps as she's finally done But it's been a long time since she really sa

Eyes stare at the paved sidewalk At the empty streets Remember how we used to walk down them How I used to want to hold your hand How you declined affections How I cried But, Dearest Love, those times are almost over Looking back you were one of the best things that happened to me And I'm gonna miss you so much But, Baby, I've gotta go Because when your head breaks it down And you lay on the floor drunk I don't think you'll see me I'm not so sure you loved me And when I look back And think about how my head broke it down It still brings tears to my eyes to think we said those things And when I remember your eyes I can still

'tho the sun will set, as the night crawls thru our shade, there's no need to fret... 'cos my smile for you will never ever fade.

She's put on her prom dress Her hair styled by her friends No rain to spoil the evening Except there's something missing Someone. Her perfect prom date The worst thing is he's not late He didn't even go His favourite band at a one night show Pretty hair and dresses mean nothing now In the beautiful hotel room she falls down On the bed she always wanted to share with him All the lights are dim She's so glad she remembered her Daddy's knife All the stars are gleaming on prom night Red looks so good against blue, Girl against floor a sight for few. All her life she didn't mean to trouble anyone She knew she could never be his o

How did I offend you? Were my words too harsh for you? Did I forget to smile at you? Was I too rude for you? Would you rather I lied to you? I should have known about you, how you are always about you, how the world revolves around you, how I was never a part of you. How could you? I adored you. Does this body of mine entice you? Does it sometimes call to you? Is it just a plaything for you? Does this plaything satisfy you? There's a thing in my chest that lives for you, this thing it only beats for you. Is this the thing that frightens you? Are you aware of the one inside you? How dare you! I despise yo